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Couldn't bother.

Finally I'm here to settle down & blog a decent post after a week. Super busy week. Have been either going home at 6am or just ton straight, or at cousin's house sleep for a few hours before going back to help out at the funeral. I have to say a very thank you to people who came down to either accompany me or help out or to pay your respects. Thanks to those who gave me a call or text to cheer me up too. I appreciate alot.

Last Thursday's.

It was Bestbest's early birthday celebration @ Cine's kbox. Met up with her for our mac lunch at Lotone first, saw Jiawei when we were waiting for train & we went to Cineleisure tgt. Found them at pool hall. Waited for them to end their game before we went to KBox. Actually, Jiajie & Gabriel had already bought the cake at Yishun, then brought it to kbox before we reached. So the 4 guys went out first, pretending to go toilet/smoke. Then Jiajie called me to come out with Pearlyn, leaving bestbest all alone in the room.

Tried our very best to keep the candle light burning, and tada! Sang the birthday song as we bring the cake in. It's our first time celebrating one's birthday as a group & there's definitely more to come. Who's next on the list? Who? Me la! LOL.

More photos up on Facebook. :)

I'm lazy to elaborate more. I'm going to rot at home today. Was supposed to go temple today but I can only go on the 7th day because of my ahgong's demise, so just nice tomorrow is the yewkeng. Hahaha, havent mention, my sintua's dua li ji has started! Started on Monday alr. Couldnt go down to support everyday like last year but I'll go everyday next year as promised. :)

The day that I feared the most had come. But it came so unexpectedly and so strongly.. We didnt expect it to come so soon. My first time crying so much for a death. And I miss you.

Rest in peace Grandpa.. :(

Quite a number of people come my blog as seen from my tracker. But, everybody view & run, nobody wants to tag, what for update right? :)

Deep down.

Received news when I woke up that Ah cat auntie had passed away this morning. Quite sudden news to me because last saturday I visited her at the hospital, she looked quite energetic.. But we all know this day will come sooner or later. Might be going over to her funeral a few days later, see how. Although I only see her around in temple, but I knew her for quite some time alr, rest in peace..

Did a little bit of shopping today with Mum @ Jurong point. Got myself skincare products, wanted to get the O2 mask but the salesperson recommended me a better one with 3 functions. Whitening, restoring skin & hydrates skin. Tried it just now & my face feels so refreshed now. The person gave me free samples from the same brand too, toner & moisturizer. Bought a liquid eyeliner also, newly arrived from Japan. :>

Got myself 2 shorts as there are some shorts in my wardrobe that is time to be thrown away. I was supposed to accompany Mummy for shopping but in the end it seems like it's her accompany me. Teehee.

Home quite early at 4pm as heavy rain is approaching.

Now, I'm quite sure of this feeling, but it got to be kept deep down within me. It will remain as a secret, till someday, somewhen, he asks me the question that requires this secret as the answer..

Losing control.

Ok enough of laziness. I'm here to update! After running in & out of home for days and days, time to take a break so I'm staying @ home today. Hahaha! I luv holidays but I'm left with what, less than 3 weeks? :(

I couldn't remember what I did on Thursday.

Friday was Haw Par Villa with Weiqi, Jiajie, Gabriel & Jiawei. My second time there, first time was with Bestbest. I left home with my long sleeved shirt because I was feeling really cold after my bath. But it was really burning hot at Haw Par Villa. Thank god my shirt wasn't thick at all. :>

Lazy to upload other photos. Kope from Facebook one.

Around 1pm, we got bored. Got a drink & chatted till our hands got itchy. Cabbed to Jiawei's house for our mahjong session. Till 10pm before I got down to Farmart with Jiawei & his parents. Left for home at around 1am?

Saturday, met up with Jiajie first at Bugis as the rest were all LATE. A few rounds around Bugis street before we meet Pearlyn, Gabriel & Jiawei outside the tattoo shop. Sudden decision to pray at the Guan Yin Temple. Accompanied them for their lunch at Fortune Centre and after that Pool Fusion for number ball. Pearlyn & me got our high score record on this machine that plays the "spot the difference" game. Hahaha.

Bugis Junction for arcade. We spent over $20 on the stupid soft toy machine & we still couldn't get the pig that I wanted. Sighz.

Then we took bus 33 to East Shore Hospital at Joo Chiat Road to visit Ah Cat auntie. After that, the 5 of us squeezed into Jenny auntie's car and went to temple. From around Joo Chiat to Jurong! Is super far okay. But I'm still alright as I'm sitting in the middle & I'm the smallest sized one hahaha. But the rest of them were all suffering. LOL.

I forgot who suggested that we take a photo. Then we spent over 20mins to take a nice one!

Stayed at temple till 11plus pm then Babu & co. decided to bring me along to West coast for billiard. How many rounds of number ball had I witnessed that day?! So I rotted at there till 2am or so till Daddy came & fetch me home. :)

Sunday I got bombed up of bed early in the morning by Hu Jia Jie! Last minute decision to go Suntec. So I met up with Weiqi, Jiawei & Gabriel @ City hall first. Got their lunch settled at Marina square's Subway. Then they had pool at the arcade. Rounds and rounds at Suntec till Jiajie found us. Back to Marina square for bowling! Loser do forfeit. Haha.

Afterwards we went for dinner. Then our crazy night. Truth or dare by the sea. Uncovered many truths LOL. And those stupid dares. Stupid but funny. :>

Yes I got to credit him. Thanks to Jiajie for accompanying me take mrt back to Jurongeast even though you can reach home in like 30mins? Hahaha, thanks la! Reached home around 10.15pm.

Monday, which was yesterday, was a mahjong session at my house. Waited for Jiawei, Jiajie & Weiqi to come over. Went down to fetch Gabriel up around 6plus. Our dinner was PastaMania delivery. Hahaha.

I really feel that I should close my blog or something. Now every word I type here I got to be very careful and think twice.. To prevent any more misunderstandings.. Especially with people I'm close to. :(

P.S: Anyone in the same situation as me who hasn't done their holiday homework?! LOL.

11th.

12th Dec 2008, I had a hard time getting through my day. Every second seems like a torture. That was the day I swore that I will trust nobody in my life except for myself. Because that was the day you made me understand what a jerk you are. Now, I heard from others that you're no longer like before. My initial thought was, why didn't I know you one year later? But I managed to convince myself that even if I knew you 10 years later, we'll still have the same ending.
All tears after that day brought me back to 11th Dec 2008. The very last day I believed in happy endings. Now one year has successfully passed & it's time to realise that I've actually already moved on. Just that I took a much longer time than you. How long did you take? A few days? But I'm glad that no matter how long I took, I managed to carry on with my life without you. Now irregardless of how many times I'll see you for the rest of my life, I can proudly say,

I don't need this 11th anymore.

Rewind.

I'm tired! I'm gonna sleep early tonight. I just reached home not long ago, super tired. I love taking mrt at such late hours, I don't have to squeeze with the crowd & there's complete silence. Hahaha.

Received a call from Jiajie in the morning. We were supposed to meet 1pm @ Sembawang mrt, but I only went to bathe at 12pm. Managed to rush out of my house at 12.30pm. I got to say that it's their luck because I could finish preparing in 30mins! Found him & Jiawei at Sun plaza's mac. Walked around before taking bus to his house. 3-people mahjong while waiting for Weiqi to book out from camp. He came around 4pm. 2 poks of mahjong ended at 9plus. Chitchat at void deck before heading home. Thanks Weiqi for accompanying us to take mrt when he could just take bus home. :>

Hmmms, I won't be going out tomorrow. Really got to visit my grandpa tomorrow because he didn't wake up at all today. Still breathing but just unconscious. For me, I'd rather hope that he leave peacefully rather than suffering the pain everyday. Those cancer treatments & the injection dosages are increasing day by day & it's really very painful. I didn't visit him at all this week. But I remember every week whenever I stand by him at his bed at the nursing home, I just can't control my tears. But I know pain & death is part and parcel of life. We all got to go through it. Just that you have to learn how to let go of someone close to you.

Drifting apart. We used to stay so close, so bonded. We used to plan where are we supposed to go during the weekends. I have no idea how it turned out this way too. But I believe it'll be very awkward if we ever go out all together again. There won't be much things to share, nothing to catch up with..